Water diet here I come.
I’ve gone through a lot over the last three years. I’ve been clean of everything, except burning, for five months. And I started becoming confident with myself; conceded almost but the last few days something changed and I’ve been feeling worse and worse about myself. And today; I broke. You have no idea how disappointed I am with myself. I got a shirt in the mail today; I’ve been wanting it for months. It came from over seas and I finally got it today. It doesn’t fit. I’m too fat for it. I’m a waste of space. My new hair cut makes me even uglier than before, my smile is fucked, my thighs are to big, my boobs are too small, I have an annoying laugh. No guy wants to be with me. I’m a complete waste and I hate myself more than ever right now.
Hi, I haven’t been on here for awhile; mainly because I gave up hiding the fact that I had an ED. Either way; I’m on the road to recovery, I’ve been clean for a good five months now and my new years resolution is to not have any slip ups. I’ve been tempted a bunch but I haven’t slipped up and I’m really proud of myself. I’ve accepted my body, finally. It was many years of struggling with low self confidence, but I’ve been working on it, and I’m happy now. I hope the best for all of you and you all can accept your natural beauty. Good luck <3
I’m not suicidal, I just want to die.
I’ve been doing a lot better, I hardly purge anymore but I know once I got back to school; it will all change, and I will be back to where i was two months ago. Losing all my progress. And I’m scarred.
I hate these types of thoughts.
You know, the ones where all you want to do is purge till there is nothing left.
Till you think you cant be happy unless your skinny.
The thoughts where he’d like you more if you were thin.
The thoughts where you’d be better off dead.
The thoughts where everyone would be happier without you.
And that one person, who said that small comment that made you think all this.